Internet Ministry in South Africa

From ZCC, rape and suicide to a life of victory!

Victoria Ngake

I grew up in a family that fellowship at Zion Christian Church (ZCC).  I got baptized in that church and believed that Lekganyane was a living god.  We worshiped him and dedicated our prayers to him and used his name in every situation that you might be going through.

During January 2011 I met a friend at college who would always preach the gospel to me about Jesus Christ and how much God loves me and wants me to accept Jesus as my Lord and Savior.

On the 21st March 2011 I accept Christ as my Lord and Savior. 

From that moment my life changed and I began feeling important and my life was worth living for.

On the 30th October 2011 I got raped by a very close friend whom I trusted. I couldn’t understand why it happened to me because the word of God says: when my enemies attack me they will stumble and fall.  I began cursing God and felt like my life is not worth living.  I hated myself and blamed God for what happened.

Early January 2012 I went to prison to see the guy and he pleaded with me to forgive him and withdraw the charges.  I considered it only to later learned that it was just an act.  On the 7th February 2012 I decided to commit suicide, drank 2 packets of tablets and was admitted at the hospital for 3 days.

The doctor told me that there is nothing he can prescribe for me because the tablets did no harm to me.  I did not believe it “how can I drink 40 tablets and come out alive!”. I realized my planes are not Gods planes.

When I got out of hospital I feared God and loved Him more, that is why today I say: “No matter how hopeless your situation may look, nothing is impossible through Christ. Your problems can be a miracle.”