Internet Ministry in South Africa

Suicide Testimonials

From ZCC, rape and suicide to a life of victory!

Victoria Ngake

I grew up in a family that fellowship at Zion Christian Church (ZCC).  I got baptized in that church and believed that Lekganyane was a living god.  We worshiped him and dedicated our prayers to him and used his name in every situation that you might be going through.

During January 2011, I met a friend at college who would always preach the gospel to...

Driven to suicide

Driven to suicide

Depression led me to try to take my life; but, God had other plans.

I was raised in a family where morals were very important but a relationship with God wasn't talked about. We went to church every Sunday, though, and I was baptized when I was 10 because it seemed like the right thing to do.

When I entered junior high, I met an amazing group of friends who I call the girls....

Paul's Suicide

Paul's Suicide

'Your brother is dead.' My wife could barely get the words out, 'He took a shotgun and blew his head off.'

Paul's young lifeless body lay on the cold floor of his apartment for at least a week before anyone found him. Several questions ran through my mind. Why? Wasn't there anybody there to talk to him? And how come no one even noticed he was gone until almost eight days later?


Second Chance


My junior year, it all fell apart. Dealing with all the hurt, the loneliness and confusion pushed me to take the pills...
A neverending fog, not knowing a way out, feeling as though life had nothing to offer, that I was just a cosmic joke created by God for his amusement, feeling that death would offer endless supply of better alternatives to life.

This is the way I thought and...

Dealing with Suicide

Dealing with Suicide

    My sister committed suicide - rocking our family to the core. My life was filled with many emotions and questions, and none was bigger than the "Why?" question.

    In 1984, my family was dealt a big blow. First, my father suffered a heart attack in which the doctors had to "shock" his heart to where it would beat again. About a month later, he suffered another milder heart attack...